Days 12-16

I have not figured out a good place to put my laptop since my little office area became the latest construction zone - thus less blogging.

Health journey-wise these last days has not been the greatest. Saturday I was out with Michelle shopping and Sunday I developed a weird skin infection - that hurt.  Monday, I had my annual physical with my doctor and ended up with a script for the skin infection, instruction to schedule my mammogram, a pelvic ultrasound scheduled, instruction to improve my diet and retest my blood in 3 months and an appointment in April to discuss all of the above with her.  I have a good chance of having fibroids on my uterus which is not fun.  I have been hurting since my exam.  I went to the gym and had a pity party with pizza.  *sigh*

The good news is that I gave the pity party a designated time - it was over at 10 pm ET AND I really only ate a few chips, pizza and a diet coke.  Then I had water and a couple mini peanut butter cups. Party over.

Yesterday, my food choices were not great - I had a mammogram at 8 and was starving.  I skipped out on the gym at lunch since I was late to work - which was dumb, if I had had my gym bag with me I would have went since I wasn't THAT late to work. 

Decided to try to get back on track that night - salmon for dinner - not my fave I discovered, Shane and I much prefer tilapia.  I ran a couple of errands after dinner and was so exhausted I could barely move so I didn't make it to the gym, had popcorn and was entertained by my group on facebook getting their workouts in.  Roan had the night off so I did actually sleep better - I am trying very very hard not to worry about this ultrasound and what could become of it, I pray, I ask for God's will but it must still be there, along with sores that hurt when I move.  So exhaustion hit hard last night. 

Today I am moving forward.  I am going to live and learn to take care of myself no matter what I find out.  I may have endomitrosis, I may need a hysterectomy, I may be entering menopause - but I will pray for peace and strength and live each day to the best of my ability.

Days 8-11

My computer area at home is in teh construction zone so it became hard to blog.  This week has been awesome in regards to exercise - I made it to the gym 5 days in a row and plan to go tomorrow morning.

Wednesday weigh in was down one pound.  Food has not been the greatest - need better planning.

I am still hoping to get in more stretching/PT stuff at night and want to start the Prayfit routine.  This is proving difficult with work in the family room - it is full and dusty and it was my workout place.  It is also taking my time and energy working on it.  I think we have another month before the construction is complete but my desk area should be more functional after the next round. 

I am not disappointed with my progress though - overall it was a good week!

2013 - Day 7

 

I was going to try to post a pic once a month this year since my goal is to lose 5 pounds a month.  So here is the one for January. yippee.  Starting weight Jan. 1 was 200.

 

2 miles at the gym today (well a little over but 2  is good).  Eating is on track so far today and dinner is planned and logged in.

 

Now that I am back from the gym, I am sleepy, but I am getting to be an expert at making awesome sandwhiches on English muffins. :)

2013 - Day 4-5-6

Had a busy but productive weekend!  Logged 2miles on the treadmill on Saturday.  Counted all my calories and ate really well Sunday.  Still working on the basement and made effort to get the house back in order.

2013 - day 3.

Fail. At least I got some more cleaning done at work and we worked in the construction zone again. Food was not wise except I made BLTs for dinner. Water was lacking. Exercise was non-existent. Good thing tomorrow is another day.

A Flaw I May Have

Well, I know I have plenty of flaws in all honesty but I am thinking about one in particular - worry.

I don't understand it. I don't get it.  And when I encounter it I think of Matthew 6:24:34.

I will pick out my favorite parts of that:

²⁷ Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

³⁴ Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

Now I have mom worries at times but am learning to send those up as well before I let it consume me.  And just because I send off my worries, that doesn't mean I don't care, right?  I am still concerned about these issues but I am conceding the fact that I am not in charge and asking help from the One who is.  I can only make choices that align with what His plan is for me.  I just don't see the point of dwelling on something that I can't change.  I can pray, I can choose wisely, I can train up my children to the best of my ability but ultimately?  I can't MAKE things happen.  I can't.

So am I wrong? Should I worry to the point of sleeplessness? should I let thoughts of worry consume my every minute when something is happening?  I hope not.

And if I am wrong, I guess I will just be more flawed than I thought.

And ask for patience to deal with the worriers I encounter. 

Lord, Please put the right words in my mouth to comfort those in need and open their eyes and hearts to your will.  Amen.

Or make sure I walk away fast enough before I become tactless and flawed. ;)

Day 2

Today started off well and ended not so wonderful diet-wise. Slow and steady is the theme for this year. I did manage to get my filing done at home, and my desk cleaned off. Plus a coat of poly on the first round of woodwork.

Tired and worn out lately so working hard to get back on track.

2013 - Day 1

Well today was a holiday and I spent it painting and staining.  And cooking.  And watching football.

I did not do any formal type exercise but I am ready to start counting calories and working out again tomorrow.  My gym bag and my lunch are ready to go!

Fun, new color:

 Back breaking work:



My computer is much better too so maybe more writing will be happening.  I have some goals for this year but I have to get that written out and then will post to remind myself.

Here's to a fresh new start to a new year!

Hmmmmmm....

I really believe if my computer at home weren't so stupid, I would blog more.  Oh well, someday.

I have decided to just walk this week.  I set a goal on facebook to log 10 miles this week through the treadmill and elliptical thinking I would alternate like normal - treadmill Monday, Wednesday, Friday doing the C25K and elliptical and weights the alternate days.  Well that has not happened.  Things are a little crazy at work getting the boss out on vacation so I am allowing myself to just walk.

I have 4 miles in out of 10 and will get a couple more at lunch.  Walking on the treadmill can be tedious but it is exercise!

I have 3 weeks of "freedom" here at work and plan to spend extra time at the gym at lunch.  wahoo!!

I want to lose weight during the holidays.  It may not be much but I want it to be something!

4 Days and an Update on the C25K

I have officially gone to the gym 4 days in a row!  I need to make 2 more and then I will just be walking walking walking all day Saturday.

Today, I was on the treadmill.  I started C25K over again for the last time on Monday.  My ankle was not feeling very stable on the treadmill so I do the first 2 runs, walked through the next 2, did the 5th and 6th and walked the rest.  I then found an ankle brace (not hard in my house!).  So today - my 4th day in a row - at the gym, I was on Day 2.  I had the ankle brace on and decided to try to add 1 or 2 runs to my previous attempt.  I had some annoying technology issues but ended up running the first 3 runs, walking through the 4th, running 5th-7th and walking the rest.  Not too shabby.

Getting back to the measuring & counting has not gone as smoothly as I anticipated and I have not been at or under my calorie goal much but it is getting better.  I did get on the scale this morning and my weight is the same.  I am staying at 10 pounds lost.  I can deal with that even though I wish I had stuck to it a little better this past month.

Today at work I am struggling.  I want to eat but I know that I want to eat because I am bored.  I will make it to a better snack time and have my apple and cheese.  Good choices.  Smart choices.  Because it is still all about choices for me.